Overwhelm

I don’t think I’ve ever been more grateful for the weekend to arrive! I had a bit of a wobbly moment midweek. Overwhelm was creeping in with the amount of work I needed to do between now and the summer. Everything seems to come at once in the football industry. Deadlines, meetings, visits, processes to review, assessments to pass. Lots of plates to keep spinning.

Thankfully I have a supportive boss. On Wednesday when I looked at my diary for the next 6 months, I started to get that familiar feeling of overwhelm. I had a chat with my boss about my concerns and let him know how I was feeling. I wouldn’t ordinarily have done this. I’m not very good at flagging things until there is an actual problem. But something in me knew I needed to be open and honest. And I’m really glad I told him. Straightaway, we created a plan to take some of the burden off me. I’m still anxious about the coming months, but I feel like a weight has been lifted.

Self-Care

This week has also been the first week living on my own, albeit with my extremely fluffy four-legged friend, Wigs. As much as I loved the idea of living on my own, I’ve never done it before. I didn’t know if I would feel lonely, scared, nervous, or bored. But I’ve felt none of those so far. It definitely helps having my cat here with me. At least I can talk to her even if she doesn’t say an awful lot back.

I think I’ve actually slept the best I have in ages. My eating habits are also improving, as I’m making smaller, healthier meals. I’m spending more time doing things ‘I’ want to do. I’ve enjoyed catching up with some reading, watching my favourite movies, and seeing friends. I’ve even spent some evenings catching up on work without feeling guilty about it or being interrupted. I also like that if I come home grumpy and tired, I don’t need to worry about upsetting anyone.

Despite sleeping better, eating better, and doing more exercise, I feel exhausted. There’ve been a lot of emotions to process over the last few months. I need to make time this weekend for some self-care and rest before another busy working week begins.

Time to get away

I am so grateful that I have a holiday on the horizon too. I’m normally last minute with booking my holidays. But I was organised this time and booked this one over Christmas. Knowing that I have my holiday to look forward to is helping me to get through gloomy January. It’s giving me something to look forward to. Even though Portugal might not be very warm in February, there’s more chance of seeing the sun than in London. I can’t wait to feel the sun on my face and the sand between my toes.